Why me

Why me

Why me

Thousands of question on my mind

my brain cannot process each of it

I am stucked on my window..

shipwrecked...

no words could describe the disparage heart stuck on my body

watching those pure face

with their pure inner heart

Why me

I am not strong to go through everything

I am so fragile even I cannot stand on my knees

Dessicated heart indeed

Intoxicated mind probably

How to sustain myself

what is the remedy

he is by far from me

I don't know him anymore

he is somebody that I used to know

No

Allah is there

You never realize He is there

He is testing you a little bit

to show He love you

So much love onto him

he neglect you

A little love onto Him

He never leave you 

Back to the root

Onto you Allah

Aku kembali bersujud

Sya

the note written in 23/09/2013,

2 days after celebrated Sarah Arissa Amani 3rd birthday,

I was really frustrated.